Being pregnant has taught me a lot about myself. Even though my situation isn't ideal, and may even be frowned upon by some, I stand by my decision to keep my baby. For most of the pregnancy, I lived in shame. I was embarrassed to be pregnant and unmarried. Even though I loved my baby's father, he didn't want anything to do with us.
Through the months, I been feeling something tugging at my heart and soul. I been finding myself slowly reconnecting with God, and I been wrestling with going back to Church. This week, I found myself ready to return. Unfortunately, I wasn't sure where to start because I am pregnant, unwed, and I know a lot of Churches frown upon that. I wanted to return to Church because my unborn son and I need a fresh start. I don't want him born into chaos. I want him to be born into love.
A friend of mine told me about a Church that is 10 mins from my home, and this morning, I went. Walking in, I was nervous. I was immediately greeted by greeter and the pastor. They made me feel so welcomed. After service started, a woman came in and sat in front of me. She immediately connected with me. She and I briefly spoke and she told me that there are several single moms in the Church and there is even a program for women who are pregnant and don't have the support of the baby's father. Along with the kindness I encountered at this Church, and hearing about the program, I was sold. I was exactly where God wanted me to be. The pastor's sermon was pretty amazing and the music was incredible. Afterward, I was introduced to a TON of people, and I stayed for lunch.
I literally lucked out with this Church. Finding a Church home that is welcoming to all walks of life, including single moms, is almost unheard of. No one in that congregation was fake. I saw guys with tattoos, people with multi-colored hair, single moms, LGBT people, and more. All walks of life that have come together to worship without judgment...it was pretty awesome. Tomorrow night, I'm going to the program for single moms (to be), and Thursday I plan on going to Bible study. I've never been this led to completely embrace Church before. Not to mention, my unborn son was kicking away during the sermon and the music. Even he gave his seal of approval, LOL!
Coming to this point in my life was a slow process, but it's a process that needed to happen. My unborn son and I have been through a lot, and we deserve a fresh start. I don't know what the future holds for my son and I, but I know that God has us both in the palm of His Hand. I truly am grateful to have found an amazing Church family.