When a bathroom floor challenges you to a trust fall, don't accept the challenge!! Heed this advice if you have hardware in your spine.
Picture this: it's Monday morning. You are barely awake. You enter the bathroom with the intention of relieving your bladder from a night of pent up urine, and showering thereafter. After voiding, you prepare for your shower. You are expediting the effort so you can have everything ready before your kid wakes up. During that rush, you lose your footing and crash to the floor. During your fall, you bang your arm hard on the bathtub. While you are in seething pain from injuring your arm, you panic because of your ongoing back issues. Initially, the back pain was very minimal. You go on and prepare for the day.
An hour later, the back pain starts, and it's horrible.
This happened over 2 weeks ago. I've been in horrible pain and discomfort ever since.
Back story: I've been dealing with a spinal injury since 2013. When the pain first started, it was so agonizing and debilitating, I couldn't walk for a period of time. In 2014, I had my first spinal fusion. That surgery failed, and I developed a complication. I tried to live with it for a few years, and then things got tough again. In 2017, I had a spinal fusion revision. That surgery provided me with a few months of pain-free days. During that time, I went back into the workforce, moved out of my family home, and was completely independent. I was the happiest I had been in years. I was even talking to an ex of mine. In September of 2017, I found out I was pregnant. I wasn't happy about it because I was still healing from my spinal fusion (it takes a year to fully heal). I kept the pregnancy, and I never fully healed from the spinal revision.
My back held up well during childbirth and post-partum life. I was doing great..... up until this year.
Last week I had an MRI, and on Monday, I followed up with my Neurosurgeon's office.
She told me that one of the screws in my back is touching something it shouldn't, and if it goes even further, I could be in even more pain than I'm in now. I also have narrowing throughout the lower part of my spine, along with bulging discs. I'm having a CT Scan in a few weeks, and then I'm following up with the surgeon who operated on me. Usually when I see him, we end up talking about surgery.
That's not all..
They also found that I have an enlarged spleen. The Neurosurgeon's office is concerned enough to forward my MRI results to my primary doctor, so I have another doctor appointment to look forward to.
When I found out about the enlarged spleen, I Googled it. I highly recommend that you NEVER. GOOGLE. ANY. MEDICAL. SHIT. before talking to your doctor first. My idiot brain now thinks that my spleen could burst and I could die. I also have it ingrained in my mind that I could be sick with cancer, lupus, or anything else.
I am trying to heed the Neuro office's advice and take it easy for a while. I can't lift heavy, I have to rest, and I was given a muscle relaxer to help relieve my discomfort. I've had to resort to asking for help from those around me, and that is a hard thing for me to do.
While I am used to dealing with my back injury, I'm not used to dealing with it while being a single mom. It's like this next level challenge that I am desperate to overcome, but I'm equally terrified of. I'm trying to get through it by making light of the situation. I make a lot of jokes. For example, a few days ago, my father asked me if the doctor gave me meds for my pain and discomfort. I told him the doctors gave me meth. While I sent that response as a joke, it was half true: the medicine I was given was Methocarbamol (I didn't know how to spell it at the time).
Another person asked me why I was walking so funny the other day. I told them I was healing from a freaky sex injury. I followed up with "Never have group sex in stirrups while high as a kite."
Don't get me wrong, I am taking my situation seriously. However, I am trying to avoid going to a dark place in my mind where I allow life to shit on me. I've been there before, and it ruined everything for me. The stakes are especially high because I have a child now. If he sees mommy upset, he will get upset. I need to keep everything normal for him, and I will.
Despite all of this going on, I still plan on blogging, opening and operating my online store, and I am currently penning two books.
This is basically what I've been dealing with for the last couple of weeks. Just a few monkey wrenches. Nothing I can't handle.
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